So, I’m a single mom. Well, every other week anyway. I have my kiddies every other week. This week s a non-kid week. I feel a bit guilty but I love my non-kid weeks as much as my kid weeks.  Abscence makes the heart grow fonder, right? True, but sometimes the guilt gets the better of me.

Tomorrow is my kids school’s ‘family fun night.’ t’s essentially like Chuck E. Cheese meets elementary school. It’s also  PTA sponsored fund raiser/thank you to the kids and families. I used to be the secretary of the PTA, I’m not anymore and this is the first year in 3 that I will not be attending. I told the kids, but they ignored me until today. It’s not like they are not going, but they are going with their dad only, I won’t be there…my daughter was upset.

My daugher is five. Once she get’s to family fun night and the over stimulation inducing event she will not care that I’m not there. I know this, logically….BUT. And her dad make sure to make me feel inadequate. Again, his attitude is expected from a logical perspective, yet I still feel this overwhelming guilt. Why? Logically it isn’t reasonable. Logically it will all be fine….yet…

I wonder when, as a parent, you stop feeling the guilt of not being everything they want….maybe it’s just me…?